Life's reasonably good to me this week. Nothing odd has happened. Expect that the twist of a joke turned out to let me know the real faces of people whom i really cared bout.
How'd you feel like when you know the person you were willing to give up things for, just walk off without any words. With nothing behind, with a scar for you heal?
I guess that's why instinct told me i shouldn't acted rashly and give up something i had for something i want, not need. Then , it came clear to me that i shouldn't even in the first place have that thought to give up the thing that i had.
The thing i had , had stayed with me through hardships, and i'm giving it up because i want that guy? It isn't a fair trade, it wasn't even exchangeable.
But of course, i guess i saw through his tricks and woke up the idea. Still, I wanted to let him know how important he was to me. But to an extend , he never really bother much. So why should i be the only one working hard to achieve the goals he claim? Believing him was rather gullible , trusting him was just plain naive. But for once, i trusted his story and choose to stand on his side when my girls had repeatably remind me that he's not gonna be here for me in the end.
Of course , i learn my lesson through the hard way again. And when i put him to the test, he failed miserably. When he didn't pass the test, i told myself i should have gave himself another test. But then it occur to me, why am i the one whose fighting for us? Shouldn't it be "we" fighting for us?
In conclusion, things don't always work out what you want them to be, no matter how hard you tried, you always ended up with the ending you never wanted or perhaps never thought of. Of course, there's exception where you get the things you want. Exception ,exception.
Relationship to maintain have many key factors for both couples to look out for and grow on. If they can't focus on those key factors, honestly its not the right time for them to settle down, or even worse , they don't even have the connection between them.
I think the worst thing bout me, is that i'm really bad at expressing my feelings to others. Sometimes i use the wrong method to show people i care and love them. Which of course , ended up like a catastrophe.
Honestly, I don't have a pretty face, but to myself and to my friends , i'm thankfully they don't just judge me by my looks. Especially my girlfriends and my childhood buddy , who doesn't give a fuck bout how i wear and look. Thank you guys!
Funny things that happened @ School Today
1. My gf wanted to buy a slipper, so i went to shop with her (in school). So we decided to buy this brand "instinct". So after we brought it. We went to walk around still. and we saw another brand " surfer paradise" slippers, that cost as much as the "instinct" one , but MUCH MUCH PRETTIER. And both us couldn't stop laughing at how we actually stand at the "instinct" counter for 30 mins and yet didnt take that time to walk around finding for pretty one. ( yes, we feel totally scammed , but couldn't help laughing )
2. My best friend and i were addicted to angry bird (PC version) . The graphic is really awesome man. So we were using our break time to argue over angry bird. When break over, we went for our test. Guess what happened after the test? .....
I passed him the software. and we started a "angry bird war 1". Whoever lose, treats the winner coffee ( i need coffee ) . so we were kinda of like fighting with each other verbally and physically in the classroom over angry bird. Well, i was at level 2 ++ while he just started playing. And he kept showing off he has 10 "3stars" on level 1 after 30 mins *frowns* . And yea, i honestly think we were the nosiest in the entire class.
Even after teacher release us for, we're still stuck on our angry bird , verbally scolding each other at the game. ( well, he was bragging bout his three stars ) Even when my gf,whom is our best friend went home. We're stuck on the game, even after the teacher left us, we were still staring hardcore at the screen. ( my teacher was awesome, he switched the lights off for us and told us that his trying to make the classroom ambiance like a LAN SHOP for us ) .
Even after the game pass the timing that we were supposed to be released which is 6pm. We're still stuck to our game. LOL. our lesson was supposing a 3 hour lesson. An hour were spent on the test. 2 hours were on our angry bird, talk bout enthusiastic !
However, because we're like brothers and sisters. We ended up waiting for each other to reach the level we are at and we actually help each other played the game. *giggles*
The funny part is that, both me and him were so enthusiastic bout angry bird rather than our homework and our test. Is like we were shouting. " WAH, THIS ONE DAMN IMPORTANT, OTHER THING CAN WAIT. MUST OWN U IN ANGRY BIRD" We were so loud that , other class teacher actually knocked on the door and ask both of us to shut up. & worst, at the point of time the class only contain me and him. HAHAHAHA. Okay, maybe if you watched the video of us screaming and playing angry bird. you'd understand how EPIC our scenario is.
Tonight i get to have an early rest, tomorrow is a lovely day with <3
Till then,xoxo
