Just as you think that things can't get any worse. Shit happens.
Right on spot, pure coincidence or purely unlucky?
Feels like my entire day was jinx.

Sometimes... no most of the times i wish i had the ability to tune my feelings out.
Sadly... I can't .
Never had i feel so terrible like today.
Now it scares me to feel this terrible again.
Maybe I'm not who i used to be anymore.



So.... I'm gonna stop being so reliance on people.
I guess nowadays loneliness get into me so much.
It scares me sometimes that I'm living back the way i used to be.
I worked so hard not to get back that life .
But now I guess I got to plunged myself back into that life.

Just when i thought reliance was the force that kept me strong.
Bah, it was it that gets me weaker and weaker.
Anyway it's my fucking fault,
I've always wanted things to go my way.
Never consulted people most of the times.
So why the fuck should people go my way anyway?
Not like my way make any sense.

I should  also learn to be understanding.
Learn to be a independent.
Learn how to get a life.
I should really learn how to fuck off at the right time
I should also abide the rule.
Trust no fucking one, and you've nothing to fear.
Never thought you're safe, you are never safe.


I ought to fuck off now.