People are often found to be very self-denial.
You deny almost every single thing, yet you want to have everything.
Like i often tell my friends, if you sought for something really hard you're gonna get it.
( But i do tell them in advance , that it doesn't happen all the time )
So, make sure your goals are set right ( and obviously not too far-fetch ).
Anyway, I like to blog hop a lot. Browsing through people twitter and going to their blog ( oh yes, i stalked ). I like to read about people life. How they managed their time, is there any new locations i could check out . However, i do like to read inspiring blogs. Bloggers that write about their tough time and so. Perhaps, i get a little caught up in reading how their relationship goes from time to time. It's interesting to some extend.
It's as if i could relate to them somehow. But of course, i like to get some pointers so i could improve in my own relationship. Like sometimes i see how some of their relationship goes through a crash course and then emerge into another crash course and then the vicious cycle repeats.
And i wonder why they could never get out of that cycle. Then i reflect on myself and realize the answers. Cause we always fall the same genre of guys. 'Bad boys' , guys that are so hard to get, so rebellious, so different from the good one. & after getting them, we wanna mold them into somehow better. Yet we did not consider getting a good guy from the start. Ironic huh?
People often praised how awesome me and guy are together . I gotta say, the credits mostly gives to my guy. Who gives in almost every single time , who nevertheless make my day brighter ( okay not always that sunny but definitely better than any guy i dated ). There are many times we could have given up . But we didn't. When people asked me have i ever wanted to give up , yes i almost did. I felt somehow not worthy of him and wanted him to get someone more worthy. But he didn't let me go.He always told me that i should never give up, i should fight for something that i really wanted.
[ If i did that in my past relationship, i prolly wouldn't be here now.... ]
Anyway, gotta get back to revision. X
