Dear diary,
Suddenly i felt so scared and frightened knowing i might lose him any moment now. I had barely held him, and now i'm losing him? This is outrageous , its driving me into insanity. Perhaps i'm thinking a little too far off, but i wanna tell him that he meant something, just that i can't figure out what he meant.
Its the first time i faced someone with bare face. I suddenly feel so vulnerable and naked. I think its the first time i'm showing someone the true side of who i'm really is. Somehow, i don't want to end this. I don't want know that i'm immediately losing him just because i showed him my bare face. Driving me into insanity.
Today was day, i laid back from work , and played games. I honestly had a great time playing card games, to block games to board games. It was just a day i feel so relaxed and i could be myself. Expect that my heart was beating faster than it should be. ( well thats because of other factors )
I guess, i should occasionally have days like this. Instead of clubbing, haha its a much healthier hobby i suppose?
Had i mention that i went out with just on sunday? It was awesome, it was just totally a camwhore session. But then, haha out of 40 photos, 3/4 of the photos are shots of just. I think i was plainly bored so i keep annoy him by shooting him in different poses. We watched " X-men : First Class " Which i felt that it was quite alright, compared to all the reviews my friend gave me.
I beg to differ. It was quite an awesome show, but you honestly need to pee before entering the hall. I head to toilet at least two time. And during the show, you might want to pay attention not to miss any details ( so that, you'd get where the show is heading to ). I had friends telling me about scenes i had to pay attention to.
After watching the show, i compared with my mates bout which character were our favorites. I kinda like Mystique? I don't know, i just amazed how she can transform herself into someone. I like the super sonic wave guy, Banshee ? His like hella cool fuck. Gotta learn to scream like him someday *chuckles*
Tonight feel so different, i have the impulse to call him. Really i do, but i think he deserve the sleep more than anyone .
p.s sorry R that i have to keep neglecting you, i love you bff. you know that :')
Goodnight, xoxo
