Dear diary,
Sometimes, you don't meant to doubt the people you love. You don't even want to doubt, but at times their actions makes you doubt yourself more than you doubt them.
The fear inside one, the fear of being neglected ; the fear of betrayal, the fear of knowing that fantasy is being than reality.
WE kept saying that knowing the truth would be better for us,but sometimes knowing the truth is gonna be just another utterly disappointing truth, yet we beg to know. Its really contradicting, but its human ; its perfectly normal.
My days are numbered, my life need to be continue. Sometimes we wants to slow down and appreciate the little things in life, but do they really worth the time that we slowed down for? Time is like money, precious, once spent its gone. Unless we earn it back, but time can't really be earned. So whats the similarity that we're talking bout? Ironic ironic.
You know sometimes you wanna be the girl/boy that your crush likes. But no matter how hard you tried, your crush never looked you the same way he/she looks at you? Even when you start typing like him/her, or talks like him/her your crush doesn't even bother noticing the effort you're trying to put.
Honestly, you can deserve a better one than wasting your time on someone who will never notice you. Beside, you'd be annoying the girl/boy your crushes like. And once he/she complains to your crush, you'd be game-over too. Instead, find someone who appreciates you as a whole , not just on your appearance, but also on your personality.
Which of course, in this cruel society. Most people judge you first by your appearance. Which is really sad , because some average looking people really had the best personality. Which is why to me, i regard them with respect and i call them beautiful.
I love you, yes i do. But if we cant compromises maybe this would end sooner than it seems.
Below is the favorite mix of my entire week.
Need to buzz off, meeting my mates for a drink. Needa chill badly.
Withlove,xoxo
