Fall for you

Dear diary,

It feels like forever when you miss the person terribly. Even minutes apart, you feel like it has been days. *heavy sigh*

Been busy seeking answers that i thought I'd know. So confusing so ironic, but yet i keep on seeking more and more answers to confirm my answers. Ironic much...

I honestly have no motivation to write much , considering that i don't really feel that people really read , they just prefer pictures. Lack of motivation, but Justin likes to read it before he heads to bed daily ; Yes , apparently i'm the storyteller . So Yes, here I'm doing my best to write something so he gets to sleep peacefully.

Y'know what? Haters gonna hate, i think i got sick of people gossiping people bout me that i never really bother to give a fuck. My mates & mom says that's because people are jealous of what i have. But why does people personality have to be so ugly? People always assume i won't be in the topic of discussion during gossips because i'm nice, and i'm honest.  Honestly, its via versa, being nice has a lot of disadvantage . Damn , sometimes i wish i could grow some vampire fangs, and growl at them * EVIL *  

What's worst than being the gossip topic is that the person whose saying nasty remarks is your own friend, not acquaintance. A friend that you've helped in , many times, and who openly assume you as their good friend too. Ah, the ironic of friends . & to add on, it's a guy. Damn, it make him pure loser to me. I wanted to confront him badly , but since i know his fucking coward, he will never own up and 'd push the blame to the one who told me bout .

Oh yes the one who heard was even more fucking stupid to believe in the first place. So yes, *UN-FRIEND * immediately. I do not hesitate to kick these people out of life, yes maybe what you said bout me is absolutely correct. & what you believed would be absolutely correct. So ? It doesn't make you any better than me, if you find me pathetic, trust me, you're as pathetic as me to say me *grins*


Continue believing what the fuck you want, look pass people looks, people weight and see their personality. Fucking losers.


- Feeling so much better after writing it out, gonna wrestle a little with my punching bag - 


Thank you people who stood by me watching me grow, watching me stay strong, loving me and accepting me in the process. Thank you much.


To haters : Thanks to you guys, i grew stronger and stronger each year. So much thanks for gossiping bout me, because it really shows you're jealous. you guys are my die-hard fans. 


Gtg, gonna prepare heading to Orchard for my massage . Xoxo 

p/s: love you , j