I'm trying not to pretend,
It won't happen again and again like that.
I never thought it would end,
'cause you got up in my head, in my head like that.
And made me happy, baby, love is crazy,
So amazing, but it's changing, rearranging,
I don't think I can take anymore
I realize people life intertwined at one point or another. Like you met this guy, you're clueless bout his past, then suddenly it occurred to the both of you that you guys actually studied the same kindergarten & you realize you knew him before you actually know him. Ironic is , both of you never really noticed each other until now.
OR
You met this person, you felt he/she has this familiar feeling but could not explain it. Then in further depth of the friendship you realize his or her friends , friends are actually friends of yours. Then you guys suddenly have a lot of things in common.
I think they're pretty a lot of examples i could list out, i could take all day. But i don't think that's the point I'm trying to emphasis on today.
I think I'm quite depressing to talk to lately.... I don't really have much to say. & I avoid the disaster topic of relationship most of the time. I don't get it, why does people find it strange for me to stay single? I'm perfectly happy now, no commitment , no complication. I find relationship sometimes leads to complication, actually most of the time.
& I won't hesitate to say , relationship makes me dumb. Makes me gullible , makes me do things without considering consequences. In relationship you just have to keep accepting the fact you're wrong even if you're right , accepting the fact you both need to have freedom. Understanding that both are you are not destined yet to get married, so both of you have the freedom to make friends with opposite sex.
In a relationship you tend to keep giving in and you realize in the end you get fuck up. Cause you gave in too much, people had already took for granted you'll be forever giving in. Damn, why are relationship so tacky sometimes? But i have to agree some relationship works out perfectly, with both party being really smart and not to do stupid things to destroy their perfectly in order relationship.( EXCEPTIONALLY CASES )
I think it all lies in communication problem. Communication is really a crucial part in a relationship. IF you go into a relationship , not having settling down as a goal . Then state it clearly, like i think we should just stay in a relationship, but you're not the ideal partner i wanna settle down . Its like proposing a ' Short-term Relationship '. Or rather if you're in for Lust, ask him/her nicely, how about being ' Friends with benefit ' / ' Fuck Buddy '. * Note : I didn't put them as same term, both of the terms have quite different meaning, but they include sex
If you're in for settling down and marriage, state clearly that you're looking for 'Long-term Relationship' . So that both of you can slowly work towards that goal. When both of you're supposing to work on that goal, please make sure you put in effort, actions not just words. Cause people get tired of hearing words over and over again, but see no effort in showing a shit out.
Relationships mostly fail because both parties never settled for an mutual agreement in the first place, like saying what he/she doesn't wanna see happening , and state what you guys expect in the relationship. I know i make it sounds like a business deal, but then if you think of it,its a steal deal, where both party get to know each other better. In case of any disagreement, both of you would have agreement that argument should never last more than a day or preferably an hour. Because it definitely spoils the relationship, its not healthy for tension to occurs.
Well, I have no idea why am i stating out facts a relationship should based on before it happens. Perhaps its because of my own misjudgement and fail - to - do - so that occur that some other people might relate their problem against mine.
Talking bout my own love story is quite a drama, melodramatic.
I wasn't much a love-hater in the beginning, i think it was experience that cause me to doubt the existence of love. No I'm declaring love doesn't exist in the entire universe, just inside my world, it doesn't exist much.
I think i was too drunk yesterday, after a hardcore drinking with Tracy, my beautiful momsie. I don't know what got into me ( i honestly think i born with too much guts or what ) i messaged him. God, i feel stupid after it. The first thing i woke up, i wished i didn't send a single shit at all. Still, thankful i didn't speed-dial him and gabble any shit. It make me sounds so fucking pathetic, no stupid to be exact.
What sucks in love is the one-sided thing, where you have no clues whether the people you love ,truly love you not . Its like they drop you hints here and there that they do like you, but in other side they drop hints they're not fucking interested in you. Mixed signals are what i'm trying to refer to. Gosh, i hate mixed signals. Its the worst signals around other than waiting for the traffic light signals. * roll eyes*
I wish mixed signals doesn't happen, if you like that person don't be afraid to show it. If the person don't like you, just move the fuck on. I always like to emphasis to my friends, especially to myself
Yeah, My case is so one-sided love... BUT I'm glad i woke up from that dream and moved on. I'm not moving on fast, I'm just smart at knowing staying doesn't make much difference. If you don't matter in that person life, why stay? It make yourself look so redundant in the entire big picture.
" There's no such thing as happily ever after, there's just move the fuck on without others"
Christmas Eve is this Saturday, I have people asking me ..... But i purely put in terms that "I'm not really someone you really want to celebrate Christmas eve with , cause i'm gonna be really dampening on that day " But they don't mind, claiming its okay. Consideration will be made. I still think I'm jinx on Christmas.
Okay gotta start on my Codes, my buddy is coming over in awhile now.
Have fun partying everyone, xoxo
