Dear diary,
Although I'm not a Christmas fan, i swear i'm still not. I feel that christmas is a season of love, a season of giving. Like exchanging presents, showering with love. It's a season where i see couples get together, couples exchanging kisses.
I think mine is more like a depress season, where i just stared at people who're excited bout Christmas and i still question them about what's so elated bout it. Its just another day to me, i suppose so. Each year of Christmas i dread it badly. I still dread it badly, i feel more cursed and cursed when the day is approaching.
People who knows about me dreading it are trying to break me out of the curse, i swear i'm really thankful for them. At least they don't mind being jinx, i also have people who booked me a month ago, and people who wanna fill my schedule to the brim . Really awesome, and i told all of them I'm gonna avoid crowd at all cost.
My parents like Christmas, I completely have no idea why. Ironic is , they claim they don't celebrate it, but we do gather and eat a nice fancy meal. *shrugs*. My dad love to date my mom to Orchard on each Christmas to stroll along the road and admire the beautiful lights. Sweet huh? While i get out at 9pm in the night to club to see DISCO LIGHTS.
I have no idea why, but i think its a trend now of putting your Proposal video on youtube or something? Although I'm not much of a love person, but I swear i - WOW - at it. I literally replay it over and over again looking at both party reaction. After the proposal, is another stage where they prepare together for their wedding, for spending their eternal life together.
Though I stared at their expression, searching for a sign, a sign of lost a sign of betrayal. I think i saw a sign of love, a sign of togetherness they're ready for. How heavenly it is i suppose...( Btw, THEY SET THE STANDARD OF PROPOSAL A BIT OVERRATED)
Marriage isn't just a word, isn't just a term. Its a word filled with meaning, filled with responsibility.If you're not ready, never accept that. Because its like a mission, just a never ending mission.
I wish people who get married at these season, people who get together this season, may the cupid be with you as long as your love stays. ( i won't declare forever, cause forever honestly doesn't exist in my dictionary , so as long as your love stays sounds more reasonable )
Yesterday night was quite awesome, we all party like a rockstar. & My best friend whose being to worry bout my depressing lifestyle, couldn't take it and came to take care of me. Why do i have such awesome friends? Damn i love my awesome friends.
Gotta go, xoxo
