Dear diary,
It's closed to a brand new year, 2011. If you're asking me if i look forward to it , definitely. But I'm not really anticipating it very much, because it means I'M GETTING OLDER, more wrinkles, more responsibility. But closer to where I'm going start a new life.
In love, we always have our loss and wins. But it's not all bout winning in love, it doesn't matter if you lose, as long as you don't lose the person you love instead. Even if you lose him, lose him because you no longer knew you're his muse. Or perhaps know that you're not the happiness he was searching anymore. ( Well, I might have lose a lot of people i loved, at least they're living happily now. )
Now in life ....
Each year, everyone lose a certain amount of people. It might be destined for them to walk out of your life. Honestly, if they could were cruel enough to walk out when you love/need them the most, it should be clear that you don't fucking need them in your life anyway. Leave the space for people who deserve it better than them.
I'm the kinda of person that I keep my old friends closely by my side. Most of my friendship has been years, some 11 years, others 6-2 years. Perhaps it's due to the fact, they're more like a family to me. Growing up with them was fun, sometimes painful , sometimes annoying, most of the time adventurous. These were the people who remembered small little details bout me, concern bout my whose treating me better than how many guy I've dated. What point am i really going bout here? Cherish people who love and fight for you and via versa, because they're the one who deserve it.
Now in Family ...
I have an awesome family, who give me almost every single i need. On wants, sometimes they provide me, but most of the time i worked hard for it. Because I feel that it's not really a need, and if i want it i should work hard to get it. Because your parents were not supposed to provide what you want, but provide you what you need. So i really hope the younger generation should stop fussing around and grow up a little. By complaining what your parents did not give you just make you really pathetic not to work for it.
You don't sit around daily , money ; yes,indirectly grew from trees , but it doesn't mean you'd be a free-loader your entire life. So what if you have a legacy to inherit from, so what you have billion or million of dollars by the age of 21 , what does it make you ? However, if you tell me you worked hard in your parents company, or have been striving hard outside in the cruel world . & Have million of dollars at 21, I bow with respect.
I believe in being self-made , so me. Because I'm gonna do that, I'll prove to people who look down one, watch me & I'll lead you to surprise
Most important to note for : Don't let anyone define who you're, you yourself define who you're .
When i tweet that next year , I'm gonna settle down, be faithful not party. Most of friends are laughing at that tweet. *horrified* Why can't they at least have some faith too, even my mom doubt it. I'm gonna try to tame down, no joke. No more wild parties for awhile, no more 8 Shots in a row, no more hangover. Damn, but at least i know I've someone to keep me at bay.
With him around, I don't need alcohol to get high. Because his the smoke to my high * giggles *
I don't know what is it that make me fall hard for a stranger, but he have these sense of familiarity that i earn for. Perhaps it's his way with words, what a brilliant journalist, so good with words. But prolly because he could accept me who I am? * prays he accept my bad ways *
I need to learn how to make him fall for me every single day, harder each day . Is google gonna be any way helpful ?
Shall off to google, how to cast spells on my man. *evil laughter*
Xo
